G kidz and their good friendz

..... I'm lost for words.... !

goodbye 2009 and hello 2010!

It's been sooo long since my last post.. gosh... .....



Writer's block I had , perhaps...



Whatever it was, it's a brand new year and I would wanna just start afresh....



It's been a tough year but a GOOD one for me.



Good because I really saw the grace and goodness of the Lord thru the difficult times ....

Good because I came points of total helplessness and learnt that many things in life are out of our control and learnt to let go and trust God more...

Good because there has been many changes but have learnt that as long as I keep my heart pure and continue to fear the Lord , I can go thru them with confidence that things will turn out alright...

Good because I see how blessed I am to have so much love and support from my husband, family, and good friends who have been there to support me through the tough times...

Good because I've experienced first hand God's supernatutal miraculous healing upon my friend's 2 yr old critically ill daughter and saw the whole family acknowledge the Lord as their savour ...

Good because I see God's continued provision in our family since I became a SAHM in Jan 2009!

.... the list can go on and on.....



Thank you Lord for a very blessed 2009.... I look forward to 2010, another year to experience your love and faithfulness and grace!



It's time to move on......!

a happy lunch...

See my recent master piece........It's one of the rare times that I tried to make the kids food look interesting...

It all started through a FAILED sweet potato porridge that I was preparing for the kids' lunch. Too little water and the porridge dried up...

Panicked then coz not enuff time to re cook and gracia's about to come back from school.....

throw away the porridge?? WASTE food!!! ahhh...

Just as I stared at the pot of porridge and sliced beef that I cooked.... this idea just popped by and VIOLA.. !!!

Actually it had been a stressful week coz Gracia's appetite has not been good.. when she saw her lunch , she smiled.....and to my surprised, she had "fun" laughing and eating her "special lunch" without her fuss. Thank God!

Well, learnt a beautiful lesson today..... while there are many things that may be going as well as we want to , am sure something beautiful and good will come out of it if we only learn to look at and make the best out of the "imperfect" situations that we are in...=)

Life can be so stressful with so many demands as it is.. got to learn to take it easy and pause to see the good in all that we are facing and going thru. =)

look up and experience His Grace

It's a tough season for me...more emotionally than physically with many things happening to my loved ones in my family....

There's many things I wish I can do to help my loved ones but realise that there's a limit to my capacity and ability... some things really need a miracle....

I know it's a time to hang on in faith on the promises of our loving God and look up to experience his grace ...


" My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in (our) weaknessess" 2 Corinthians 12:9

my little macho man has turned 1 !!!!

On Aug 2008, a beautiful baby boy was born.....

Beeeeeezzzzzzz , 12 months later.......in Aug 2009

He's been such a blessing in our lives !! He is , and has been and WILL BE a blessing ALWAYS!

He's brought so much joy into our lives , always bringing a cheer even on gloomy dayz..=)

Mummy, Daddy and Jie Jie love you very much Gabriel!

encouraging the Gkidz to encourage each other

Yeah, just discovered this little secret to bond the G kidz...... getting them to encourage each other!!!!! =)


Jie Jie usu takes a longer time to finish her meal while Di di can speedily finished his meal without any fuss...
while it's tempting for mummy to compare Jie Jie but decided to ask Di di to encourage JIe JIe to "Jia You and finish her lunch" instead...

So we all sang ," jie jie , jia you, jie jie , jia you..........."

The result ... a very motivated jie jie who finished her meal faster than usual and lots of fun with di di Gabirel clapping away , cheering jie jie on !!!


I'm remind that every child is unique with different strengths and weaknesses. I'm thankful for the gentle reminder not to compare my children with each other but to remind them to spur each other on by encouraging each other esp in one another's weaknesses =)

Raising confident children...

Something I really believe in :

"You can bonded with your children , not by their dependence on you. But by love and SHARED PRIDE in what they HAVE ACHIEVED. "

IT's my desire to raise my children to be confident children who dares to try and learn as they make mistakes in their journey towards independence.

All in a day's work

Through the eyes of little Gracia -

Early in the morning, I sweep the floor, I sweep the floor ...

Then it's time to feed the little one(s)...

Well... can't leave the dishes undone.. gotto wash up, wash up...

Then not forgetting the kid's fav time.... cuddling up with their favourite books....

Ah ..... finally.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

TO BE CONTINUED.......

God loves you!

ONe of the greatest blessings I wanna give to my children is to help him know and REALLY know how much God loves them and our God is a great and faithful one.

Life is never gonna be easy always but as they know that whatever storms they face in their lives, GOd is still in control and He loves them very very much. I know they will have the courage , grace and wisdom to grow up confidently and brave through every season of their lives =)

time passes soo fast!

I can;t believe it... the one month Jun Hols are coming to an end!!!!!!

I was initially very apprehensive on how I was going to keep my ever active Gracia happily engaged at home and also how things are going to turn out with Gabriel and Gracia together at home.....

Well I must say, I'm kindaff sad that the hols are coming to an end... have enjoyed myself thoroughly tho exhausted .... Cause me to really appreciate the time I have with my kids and family.... time passes by just toooo fast.. before I know it , Gracia and Gabriel may be all grown up , having their own activities ... Gracia walking down the aisle with the man that the Lord has blessed her with..Gabriel going to the army and coming home only on the weekends.... ooppps... Am I thinking too much?????

Well, at this moment, I'm just so very thankful that I can really be so involved at this stage of their lives, laughing and playing with them., watching them develop and grow right before my very eyes. IT's all God's grace and I'm really thankful for it...

Want to get down to do some scape book project to capture all these precious moments together...

Will be posting pics up soon on my next entry!!!!!!

Discipline and LOVE

A challenging day .... discipling my 3 (almost , by this fri) year toddler.

It's time for her afternoon nap and her previous activity before her afternoon nap was practicing her alphabet writing . Although she's ok to move on to her nap, she still wanted to hold her book and pencil case to sleep. I agreed.

But on her bed she wanted to to take her sharp pencil out and hold it to sleep. Naturally I refused to accede to her request. It's DANGEROUS!!!!!!

But to her , it was something she liked very much and didn't think any wrong of holding it to sleep.

So it was disciplining time.

I explained the danger and told her she can't sleep with it. At most , only her pencil case with the pencil INSIDE. She refused to listen.

Then , mummy had to use a harsher tone. She still refused.

Next, a smack on the hand. Gracia still refused.

A few more smacks on the hand. Gracia still refused.

Then, confiscation of pencil and pencil case. Gracia still refused with ballooning tantrum.

Alas, the ultimate, Ze CANE.

Mummy is getting increasingly frustrated but consciously trying to contain her anger. However mummy's tone cannot hide her mounting frustration coz she's wondering how to ever make her dear Gracia get the MESSAGE!!!!!

In the end, the cane did work although it was used on gracia's mattress .

Gracia finally slept ( after lots of reassuring hugs from mummy through her sobs)...... with her pencil case ( without the pencil)

The act of DISCIPLINING is really UNPLEASANT. But behind all the unplesantness , it's stems from a lot of LOVE from the one who is disciplining.

" No discipline seems pleasant at the time , but painful. Later on , however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. " Heb 12:11

It was a terrible episode just now, not just for Gracia, but also for Mummy!!! It was an exasperating experience for me!!!!! =P

It surely didn't have to escalate so much if only Gracia would just obey . Why I got so frustrated ? Coz I didn;t want Gracia to hurt herself with the pencil and also wanted her to have a good nap!!! The longer the tantrum episode, the more tired and cranky she'll get!

Just caused me to reflect upon how God disciplines us and corrects us. He gave us the bible to teach us the way forward in this wayward world and warn us againest things that would not be beneficial for us. But sometimes, in our stubborness we may just choose to disobey. Then God in his love for us, will thus have to escalate his disciplinary measures so that we can FINALLY get His message of love to correct us for our good......

"Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best;but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness." Heb 12 :10

"My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,

and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

because the Lord disciplines those he loves,

and punishes everyone he accepts as a son " Heb 12 :4

dear Lord Jesus, please help me to learn to obey and trust you and your word for I know that you know best for me. Help me to always have a teachable spirit that is willing to change as you lead and guide me. Thank you for loving me so much that you will not give up disciplining me so that I will grow in holiness and wisdom.

I want Daddy!!!

Gracia woke up this morning and was sobbing " I want daddy ! I want daddy! "

I was feeding Gabriel breakfast so I just let her ventilate it out. But she didn't stop

Tried to coax her by distracting her with her favourite Vitamins and to hugged her to tell her that daddy has gone to work and will be back later. Assured her that mummy is here with her.

But She still didn't stop .

" I want Daddy!!! I want Daddy!!! "

So mummy said " Mummy call daddy and you talk to him ok? "

She nodded her head and quickly got the phone over to me.

I passed the phone directly to her after dialing Daddy Johnson's number .

"Daddy , just now I cannot find daddy .. I cry... I want daddy"

Johnson talked to her for a while then Gracia said " ok.. ok" and passed the phone back to me ,a bit more pacified and still whimpering =)

Wow, so proud of my hubby. Gracia's deep affection for her daddy is by no coincidence but lots ( and lots ) of dedication , love , time effort daddy takes to be with them .

Despite the intense work load at the office, daddy makes deliberate effort to be home early . When daddy Johnson returns home, he'll do all he can to take over from mummy and spend time with the kids, eg feeding Gabriel dinner , playing with Gracia, talking to her and prepare her for her bedtime etc.

When the kids are all asleep, he'll avail himself to hear mummy rattle on ( and on... and on... and on.................and on....) to unload the day's events until her word quota for the day is almost reached. ( almost coz mummy justs talks tooooo much at night but tooooo little time , waa haa)

Thankful for you JOhnson! =)

just for fun - pt 3

Getting to Know ......

Hello... guess you know my name is Handsome... oh also known as Gabriel...

Wanna know my all time favourite hobby????

Yeah... you guessed right!!! I Love to suck my thumb... anytime, anywhere.

And the only time I will get it out is .......

when my mummy makes me laugh..........

wa haa haaa... I'm sure you are laughing too!!!!!!!

..... to be happy..... is to ....

Trust and Obey

For there's no other way

To be happy in Jesus

But to trust and Obey

As Gracia is turning 3 soon , she 's becoming more expressive about the things that she wants her way. Challenging ..... while I'm thankful that Gracia is growing in independence (eg like wanting to and being able to dress herself and choose her own shoes to wear, brush her own teeth..) , this is also the important phase to teach her about obedience and having a submissive and humble spirit especially to the authority placed( her daddy ,mummy and the elders) over her life.

In one of her recent defiance episode, I shared with her from my heart (almost to tears) on why I had to teach her to learn to obey.

"Gracia, daddy and mummy wants to teach you to learn to obey us so that you will grow up into a lady of wisdom and discernment with a life that's full of favour with God and people whom you will meet."

She nodded her head. ( actually wonder how much she understands yet....but she ALWAYS surprises me)

Only with a submissive spirit, would one be open to the correction and discipline of the authority that our loving God has put in our lives.

It's my prayer that Gracia will always have a submissive spirit with deep respect and trust for the authorities in her life . Through this , she would grow to understand what it means to fear the Lord =)

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline. Proverbs 1:7

Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.
Honour your father and mother -which is the first commandment with a promise-
that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth. Ephesians 6:1-2

One who lives to fear and honour the Lord has no other fears because he/she has confidence that the Lord LOVES him /her and will grant wisdom and guide him/her all the days of her life.

Dear Lord, thank you for giving Johnson and me the priviledge and awesome responsibility to be the authority and steward over Gracia's and Gabriel's lives. GOd, we know you are one who created the innermost being of our beloved children , Gracia and Gabriel and you have plans to prosper them and give them a wonderful future.

Today , I once again surrender them to you and ask of you to grant me( and Johnson) the grace to parent and nurture the Gkids so that they 'll grow up to bring delight to you and be a blessing all the people around them.

Lord, also teach me what it means to honour my own daddy, mummy and mother in law , that I will be a blessing to their lives. Teach me to learn to listen and hear them and treat them with respect esp during the times when I'm not in the best of moods . Help me be the model for Gracia and Gabriel to follow after.

Just for fun - Pt 2

onefine day, mummy Heng decided to take a break and got some helpers with Gabriel's meal....

" Mummy , you want me to feed Gabriel ? Ok, but I've got an appointement later. "

Gabriel : "Hmmm... Jie Jie Gracia's fingers taste better than the bread ! "

Lei Anne :" Hey Di di , quick finish your drink, I know I'm pretyy but Focus Focus, I 've got a appointment with my friend later! "

Ahh, finally the two Jie Jies finally met after doing their chores to go kai kai together! =)

The beauty of Waiting

" Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether of not you would keep his commands........ know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the Lord your God disciplines you..." Deuteronomy 8:2-5




What does being in a desert for forty years look like today?

• Waiting for the longest time for God to fulfil the desire in my heart
• season of going though all the mandane chores at home and keeping the kids to their daily routine
• praying for many years for a miracle at home
  
• feeling discouraged because there seems to be no spiritual fruits after all these years of serving

To be in a desert for sucha looong period of forty years is not only a hard but a Heart test . THe prolonged period of WAITING can bring so much discomfort, discouragment and disappointment without seeing it from the perspective of a Loving God who is STILL in control .

This period is a one of deep soul searching but I'm growing to be thankful for it coz God has been surfacing and showing me the little imperfections of my heart . I realised that the impatience and frustrations that I felt were because the many things I had wanted to trust God for was , over time, becoming tainted with my own personal agenda with my own expectations on how I want certain things to turn out.

AM I willing to once again surrender to God for the things that I am claiming by faith to be fulfilled IN HIS TIMING , IN HIS WAY instead of mine?

Am I still willing to TRUST Him ?


Interestingly, I recall an incident where Gracia asked me to buy a golf set for her . Within me, I wanted to get it for her to make her happy , it wasn't expensive nor harmful so why not. But I decided to hold back.

I didn't want to let her have the habit of asking for toys and things and expecting to get it at her whims and fancy. Somehow I know, over time, that will take away her true enjoyment of the things given to her ( delayed gratification).

I wanted her to truly be able to enjoy the things she have , to learn to wait and to TRUST me that I wanted the best for her and desire to give her things that will truly satisfy and bless her .

So I tried as lovingly as I can and said,

"No, Gracia. Not now and not this. Mummy will check with daddy and we'll decide later"


She flared into a tantrum. Was tempting to relent to avoid the discomfort of tussling with her but I still held back. I knew even if I explained , she wouldn't understand.


To make up for the vacuum within her to find something to satisfy her, I spent extended time outside for a walk and playing with her. She soon forgot about the golf toy and still returned home very happy coz she had a wonderful time with mummy. She didn't get the toy in the end but she had more of me =) I know our relationship deepened and more than that I wanted for her to TRUST me more .

Such a parallel with my relationship with God.


Many times I get frustrated and disappointed when my wait for God to answer seemed too long for me . But while the wait has been really tough, I'm beginning to understand that God wanted to correct my inner heart attitutes and refine me deep within . Furthermore, He wanted to deepen my relationship with Him and for me to TRUST Him more. That I look to Him not just for the things What He can give me but look to Him as one who loves me.

Lord, forgive me for the times I been so tempted to try to solve the issues at hand in my own way rather than wait and trust you during the prolonged waiting for your answer. I know that your thoughts are higher than my thoughts and your ways higher than mine. I may not understand how and when you will fulfill the things that I have been praying for but I know you will fulfill it in your timing , in your way . I know you love me .I will TRUST you during this waiting period in the desert. =)

giving grace

I received an sms from Gracia's teacher after school that A new little boy in class hit Gracia on the face when Gracia stared at him. His mummy sends her apologies to me.

I was having lunch with Gracia then and was a little surprised that Gracia did not mention anything to me.

Me : " Gracia, did somebody hit your face today?"
Gracia :" yes, a boy hit my face ... BUT he said sorry already"

I was surprised by her response.

Often, if someone offended us , we would complain about the wrong does agst us and get justice for ourselves. Thus her response caught me by surprise, so much grace she extended . To her , this chapter is closed with his apology. No need to know why he did it or getting back at him by asking mummy to get "justice done" for her.


A timely reminder for me to give grace to the people around me who have affected me negatively regardless if it was intentional or not. Life is too short to be trapped with bitterness . Moreover, those who may have affected us may not even realise or remember . in any case , nobody's imperfect anyway . I am grateful to Jesus and my loved ones who have given me grace when I have been and very often, less than perfect ! Let Go of all my grievances ! Do es not matter even if no apologies! Life is too short to be trapped in bitterness.

I like what my mummy taught me, " Happy is one day, sad also one day, might as well enjoy each day happily ."

Thank you for saving me

Thank You for saving me, what can I say?
You are my everything, I will sing Your praise
You shed Your blood for me, what can I say?
You took me sin and shame
A sinner called by name
Great is the Lord
Great is the Lord
For we know Your truth has set us free
You've set Your hope in me
Mercy and grace are mine, forgiven is my sin
Jesus, my only hope, the Saviour of the world
"Great is the Lord" we cry
God let Your Kingdom come
Your word has let me see
Thank You for saving me

I'm thankful for the depth of grace in my life . Indeed I am a sinner , so prone to do things that I would later regret.

Thankful that no matter how many times I fall short , I can still have hope bcoz the one who saved me is constantly doing a refining work in my inner being.

The mountains that I face often are constantly challenging me to change. To change my heart attitudes as I learn to bear with the weaknesses of others and the accusing tongues.

I remember Ps Caesar's word during the G12 conference :

When I change, everything else changes.

Macho G kid..

" I can do all things through Him ( Christ) who gives me strength" Philippines 4:13

Gabriel - God is my strength

Little Warrior of Faith

Hoooo Ray! Gracia is almost overcoming her fear of going to school on her own!!!!

For the past 3 months, gracia has been fighting the fear of going to school on her own . Almost every time before she goes to school, the fear of school overwhelms her so much that she'll run to the toilet to VOMIT all the food she had and cried lots before she enters her class!

Her mummy and daddy have been praying for her and she surprised us one night during one of our routine night prayer season where we take turns to pray for each other ...

In a meek but very serious tone she asked, "Daddy, can you pray for Gracia that Gracia will go to school myself?"

This was her REAL need and her first specific prayer request. We prayed... for many nights .

Then we also began to encourage her to make her faith declaration. When we mention SCHOOL, we encouraged her to exclaim , "Ok , PRAISE THE LORD!" We rehearsed this often and she would always exclaim with hands raised . She still struggled for some time and vomitted everyday before school. Guess this was really a Big mountain for her.

But this little girl never gave up , she BELIEVED and was still fighting in faith coz she REMINDS us to pray for her every night and praticed her faith declaration often!

INdeed, Praise the Lord! This Thursday, she was all smiles for the first time when she was preparing to go School. She knew that she had overcome and achieved something...

Just look at the face of victory , my little WARRIOR of FAITH!

I did it!!!!!!