heart to heart talk with my Gal

I was exasperated and tired. Have been trying to recover from a heart ache from someone dear to me so it kindaff affected me physically , mentally and emotionally , excerbated by the non-stop engagement with the G kidz and housework..

So my patience with Gracia was running thin, another one more of her many tantrums of the day I was going to have to "let it out"....

I laid out the food on the table to get her dinner ready before Gabriel wakes up and she let out the trigger sentence " I dun want to eat" and started whining around...

I had enough for the day , no, i dun want to scream coz my energy is depleting, nor do I want to isolate her coz that would also take more time and energy...

I just blurted out to her right from my heart, close to tears, " Gracia, mummy is very very tired. PLease dun do this to me anymore. Do you want me to work and not come home anymore? Or do you want me to stay at home to care for you..if so , please dun make it so difficult for me." I was exasperated...and Gracia seemed stunned.

There was a long pause . What happened later surprised me, she just started to eat her food , no fuss, no tears, no fidgeting. Amazing.

We had an enjoyable dinner together today . She was exceptionally sweet, not only she ate her food with appreciation ( with her hmmm, waaa..) she also scooped fish onto my bowl. She tried to make me smile," mummy ok? " she asked. I replied , " Yes yes" .

I used to have to use disciplinary actions to get my msg across so today's incident was pretty refreshing to me. GUess she's able to emphatise with my emotions much than that I expect her to . understanding Gracia a little more today.

Starting on my journey to have more mother-daughter talks at home.....